“The greater the obstacle, the more glory in overcoming it.” -Moliere
As humans, we overcome obstacles that we have to push through even when they get to the breaking point. When they get to a breaking point, it can be very easy to just throw your hands up and surrender. As a travel blogger, I have faced many obstacles and different encounters that have strengthened me as a person. When you travel, it opens up your world to new things and new situations. Well, how about when you’re told you can’t travel? Well, this is where my breaking point is. Recently, I travelled up here to the Pacific Northwest in my van and encountered some obstacles as soon as I arrived. These obstacles were issues with my van and the amount of money I had to live on. When you are a fulltime blogger, there is never a steady flow of income or what you can expect. This is a sporadic process that gives you more some months or less than others. I had to think quick, and that was to start job searching. Only 8 months ago did I quit my 9-5, and now I am hoping right back into that train.
Unfortunately, I suffer from bad anxiety and it gets worse when I am put in a situation that makes me uncomfortable. When it comes to working at a job, I am constantly on high stress. It’s not my fault, it’s just the way my brain is wired. This only started happening about 2 years ago, and I am struggling to find what will help. Since money was tight, I settled for a local job here in Seattle and have been working here for about 2 weeks now. I am not going to mention the company out of respect, but so far it’s been a bumpy ride. Previously, I had control over my schedule and was able to work when I wanted. I could pick a coffee place, put in my music, and work on my projects. It was pure freedom, and it made me happy.
For these two weeks, I have felt completely deflated. I usually start my day around 5 am and go to work about 6:30/7:30. This is a Monday thru Friday job, so thankfully I do have a consistent weekend off. When I go to work in the morning, my anxiety starts almost right away.
What’s it like working the 9-5 as a travel blogger or any blogger for that matter? It’s difficult. I think it’s difficult for most bloggers who go to college, have children, disabilities, and even work part-time. Keeping up with your life’s responsibilities and blogging is a true skill that we all have learned. When it comes to being a travel blogger specifically, I feel like my wings have been clipped off. By need, I have to spend my hours in an office doing tiring work with a business that I am not comfortable with. I want to travel, I want to write, and I want to work on my own social media networking. When you get a taste of the entrepreneurship lifestyle, it never goes away. I’d rather spend any energy I have towards that passion and empire that I have built for myself.
Working the 9-5 is definitely an obstacle, to say the least, but I am going to stick with it for a while. I have financial goals that I would like to achieve such as getting a new van and saving up some money for travel. As much as I would like to hop over this obstacle, I need to stick with it. Perhaps I can find a way to fight through my anxiety, and not give up. I am a very motivated and hard worker, but I just struggle with things out of my control. It really is saddening, but soon I know I will be back on the road working as a full-time blogger.
I will for the matter keep blogging and keep producing content for all of you. Although most days, I am very tired, I still have the inspiration and motivation to write about my travels and things in between. For now, my travel wings will just have to stay put away for a while.
Until next time,